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Status update

Feb 27th, 2008 by

We’ve had a hard week. I began bleeding this past Sat. and had a full miscarriage on Monday. When I passed the amniotic sac I was able to see that there was no baby in there. It looked like the development stopped pretty soon after implantation and it just took my body a few weeks to realize that there was nothing growing. Which is probably why I was having such an easy pregnancy with little symptoms. We are all very sad, but hanging in there. It makes it a little easier to think that the baby’s spirit realized that this might not be a good body for him and decided not to come. It also makes it easier to know that we will meet this little one when the time is right. Kaia has been doing so great. When I told her that the baby decided not to come to meet us right now, I started crying and she went and got me a tissue. She keeps asking me if I’m sad and if there is anything she can do. Her teacher told me yesterday that during ‘circle time’ (when they go around and say what they are thankful for that day) she said she was thankful for her mommy, her daddy, and that even though the baby’s spirit went back to the spirit world, it would be back some time so she could meet him. She’s such an amazing little girl!

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17 Responses to “Status update”

  1. kristine says:
    2/27/2008 at 9:57 am

    ((((hugs))))

    i’m so sorry. i hope this little spirit returns soon.

  2. Melanie J says:
    2/27/2008 at 10:04 am

    So, so sorry for your loss. The way you relate to it and teach Kaia about it is really beautiful. Thank you for sharing it, and I’m sending healing energy your way.

  3. Deidre' says:
    2/27/2008 at 11:56 am

    So very sorry about your loss. In 2004 I also had a miscarriage, but in September 2005 we were blessed with our little Noah. May you soon experience a wonderful blessing also.

  4. Daisy says:
    2/27/2008 at 12:57 pm

    I am very sorry for your loss. Sending soft, comforting purrs.

  5. Dawn says:
    2/27/2008 at 2:06 pm

    I’m so sorry for you and your family’s loss. You and your family are an inspiration to us — I too hope the wee spirit finds you again.

  6. Kathie says:
    2/27/2008 at 4:24 pm

    Sending lots of hugs and love your way.

  7. Steph says:
    2/27/2008 at 6:27 pm

    So sorry. ((HUGS))

  8. Nicole says:
    2/27/2008 at 10:33 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss.

  9. vonne says:
    2/28/2008 at 1:13 am

    So sorry, Maria.

    Yes, Kaia is an exceptional child. You’re very blessed. :)

  10. Tammie says:
    2/28/2008 at 8:55 am

    Rest up and heal. Although we have never met, it saddens me to hear of your loss. I wish you and your family the best and hope the future will bring great happiness to help soothe this time.
    ~Tammie

  11. Autumn says:
    2/28/2008 at 9:58 pm

    I am so sorry that you lost the baby. I lost one many years ago between my son and daughter and had something similar happen, (no sign of a baby). I still think of that child on the day I had the D&C done and that has been almost 25 years now. Your little spirit will return someday when the time is right.
    Hugs

  12. shannon says:
    2/28/2008 at 10:06 pm

    Oh mama, sending hugs and healing thoughts your way…

  13. Michelle says:
    2/29/2008 at 6:34 pm

    Awww honey I’m sorry. Sending healing thoughts and a virtual *hug*.

  14. Robbyn says:
    3/1/2008 at 2:25 am

    Our love and prayers are with you…sending you a hug **

  15. Christine says:
    3/5/2008 at 8:50 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. Our love and prayers are with you and your family.

  16. zoe krylova says:
    3/11/2008 at 9:23 am

    i am so very sorry. miscarriages are such a quiet sorrow. the more you speak to other women, the more you realize how many have gone through it. i have had several repeat miscarriages and am currently seeing an endocrinologist for a final try. i hope that soon you will be able to bring a beautiful new baby into your beautiful new home.

  17. Hayley says:
    3/22/2008 at 10:59 pm

    I just wanted to say that I have read some of your posts and seen your pictures and just want to commend you because you are clearly an amazing mum! I love your approach to life and the graceful way that you have accepted this difficult news and how you explained it to your daughter.
    I came upon your posts quite by accident as I was searching tattoos and was interested in the pregnant “tattood” belly! Very cool idea!

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