heart ache

I feel like an absolute, humongous pile of shit when I have to discipline K! I really hate it! She is having issues with biting me when she gets too excited. Putting her in her room for ‘time-out’ seems to be the only thing that gets her to calm down and stop biting, for a while. Tonight, she was running around the kitchen while I was doing the dishes. She ran up to me and bit my leg. I grabbed her up and went straight back to her room, placed her inside and closed the door…for two minutes. Two minutes that still leave me enough time to open my rib cage and tear my heart out while she sits behind the door crying. After two minutes, with my saggy heart in my hand, I knock on her door, “K, can you please try really hard not to bite mommy anymore? Please??” I open the door and she slowly walks out with her sweet, little head hung low. She walks up to me, turns around and sits in my lap, as if asking for forgiveness. My heart starts to dissolve. And if that wasn’t enough, she lets out a few of those half breaths that you make when you’ve been crying so hard that you feel like you can’t breath and then she leans her head onto my chest.

You’re killing me, kid!!! Killing me!!

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  1. If it makes you feel any better..sometimes a good cry is nescessary for a toddler..(IMHO)..Now, I hate to put them in time out too, but sometimes if they are really wound up, or tired letting them “discharge” is the only thing that helps…A friend of mind used to suggest holding the kiddo while they cry and “mirror” their emotions..kinda like using the words they are too young to express…like ” I can see your angry, excited..etc..” while they let it out. It so hard when they’re little..*sigh* Sending good thoughts…

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