Why am I up blogging at 7am? I’m trying to keep my self occupied so I don’t go off in a corner and cry! See, after blogging about how I need a break away and might take a trip by myself once K weans, she decided to cut back on nursing. One day, she just didn’t ask for her afternoon or evening nursing. So, I didn’t offer. I figured we’d see what happened. Well, she never asked again. So, we are down to one long morning nurse when she wakes up. Then, I decided that I would go on a trip and see if we couldn’t wean all together. She’s nursed for almost two years and I need some time on my own, right? So, this morning, I went out to the couch before she woke up and let Toby get her when she got up. She cried for a minute and then wanted to get up and get some cereal. She is so flexible and easy to adjust. Not me! I laid on the couch and cried. All I could think about was that yesterday was the last time that I will ever have my baby at my breast. Nuzzled up in my arms, finding comfort, rolling her fingers through her hair while she nurses. So, what do you do when the baby is fine with no longer nursing but mom is not? My heart hurts! I know she can’t nurse forever, but it is so hard to let go!!
*sniff*… as long as she was ready its a good thing..think of this as her first step in becoming a big girl…A lot of moms I know had a weaning present/party to celebrate the occation. Your relationship with her is about to deepen and become richer and more complex than before though I know thats bittersweet…My youngest is almost 6yo, and I still wish at times I could comfort him at the breast because it was so effective..and always took away the pain or sadness or frustration at being the youngest….(now we snuggle )but it obvious gets easier.
so Congratulations ! really..a new phase in your life and parenting has begun ! 🙂
I cried too when I stopped nursing Shawnee. I didn’t nurse nearly as long due to inconvenient work schedules and such, but it was the hardest part about his babyhood! The first time I watched Sr give his son a bottle, I bawled like a baby. It seemed like I had “lost” him for a moment. It did get easier though once I realized how much more “freedom” I had. Yes, I really think some time on your own may be good medicine! 🙂
Thank you! One thing I have noticed since Kaia started weaning is that she likes to snuggle more. I guess that is how she gets her mommy time in. I really like it!
Boo went from high-need-always dangling from my breasts to Miss Independent nearly overnight when she was 25 mos. old. I cried like a baby. My second one cut me off before she turned 9 mos. I’m thankful they’re cuddly too.
*sniff* sounds like an easy transition for her. Hope so! Pixie made a conscious decision to wean when she was 3yrs 2mos, I really miss our “noonga noo” times. She still loves to snuggle against a breast though.